Sunday, December 28, 2008

My Friend's Night

Last night, it was one memorable once in a life time event for my friend, May. Marrying the man of his dreams. It was indeed a very joyous moment to see them bind their love under God's grace. We're all very happy for these new couples and we all wish them the best!



The gathering also gave way to reunite with my college friends. And not only that, it was a surprise to see my former Nursery co-trainee, Carol at the celebration. So we made a way to bond together by taking pics of us both.




Friday, December 26, 2008

On Christmas Day...

It was JC's birthday yesterday and we had a small celebration at his grandma's house. Invited the kids along the neighborhood and they had a small feast.



At night, we went to Mana Davao to take some pictures with their attractive Christmas decors. Even met my former classmate, Nikki, there.




Finally...

Last night, I gave in to my urge of calling Arven after I found out he made a new ym. I guess that was the last sign I was waiting for, so I have to confirm his feelings for me as well as my feelings so I wouldn't be thinking of waiting for him to come back. Ate my pride and stooped down on his level to beg for another chance, still...he didn't gave in. Was crying but it wasn't the same tears I had before for him. Even said he's already seeing someone now. Still, I wasn't intrigued. Hayz, after the conversation, I was still crying since it's finally over and I realized I already lost my feelings for him. Time will come that he'll realized he's thinking wrong about me. c",)

Thursday, December 25, 2008


Merry Christmas!

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Giving Chances

Whatever reasons it may be, are you still willing to give someone a second chance? Some people will, others won't. Personally, I believe that everyone of us deserves another chance. Who are we to close our doors anyway? Even our parents forgave us no matter how great our mistakes were. Even God died for us to give us another chance to live our lives and to change.

Important thing is that, we learn from our mistakes and experiences in life. In this way, it helps us become more mature to face trials in our life with a positive and open mind. I guess people who doesn't give another chance are close minded. But we cannot blame them on the other hand for they were hurt.

But what hurts most is when you gave someone another chance/s, believing that everything will be okay after and he'll somehow change; but, when you were the one who made a mistake, everything just ended and there's no chance given to you to prove yourself by that same person. Worst is, he thinks you'll never change and he thinks worst things about you.

Monday, December 22, 2008

Realization

It's still unbelievable for me that our long term relationship's over. I really regret what I did that hurt him, if only I could turn back the time. If only he could give me a second chance.

It hurts me more knowing that he really didn't love me that much. That this incident showed me that our love's not that strong to face adversities in our relationship. Instead, his love for me faded and was replaced with anger. Though, I understand that. On the other hand, by this incident I realized that I really do love him which is painful because it's now one-sided. I can't seem to imagine myself with another man. I can't seem to love someone else again. T_T. But still, I have to try to go on living without him. He will always be in my heart.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

On Getting Hurt

Finally, I felt what it feels like getting hurt. Though I've been hurt before but I can say it was just subtle. The recent pain I went through was terribly painful. Mixed emotions have been felt not knowing what to do and made impulsive acts in the process.

Now I understand the pain it feels. And now I realized that it is not best to make decisions when you're hurt or when you're mad like what other authors say. It is because you base your judgments on your emotions which is not healthy. You are making hasty and impulsive decisions. I've been in that stage. Was impulsive with my decisions and made stupid actions. And after the pain subsides, regrets from making such decisions set in.

When you're hurt, you only care about your feelings. You only see the side of you, you're welfare. You become emotionally blinded. You can't think rationally. In this time, you need social support like your family and friends to help you see the other side of the picture...not to judge and be bias in favor of you. They are there for support and give advices. But it doesn't mean then that their advises are the best. In the end it is only you who decide rationally with an open mind. Praying also helps a lot and surrendering yourself to God helps you in the grieving process.


*Photo by ~Miss Charon of deviantart.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

A Prayer of Thanks

"Haven't been online lately but now I'm back!"


Heavenly Father,

For these past few months, I've been dwelling on this painful experience in my life. It was indeed so painful to hurt the person I loved. Still, you stood by me & comforted me with your loving grace. I've done everything to save our relationship at all cost. But you see, despite of this, you showed me the real personality of the person I loved. If this didn't happen, I wouldn't see the PROS and the CONS of our relationship. This was the chance you gave me to foresee my future with him, and it wasn't desirable after all.

I admit I'm not a perfect gf. I admit I failed. But these are not enough for him to verbally and emotionally abused me. You were the one who knew everything and I lift these all up to you. Surrendering to you my heart aches, grievances, sadness, anger and regrets. Coz it is only you who understood me completely.

Thank you for my family and friends. For they were the instruments of your love. Their unconditional love and understanding really helped me face this test with an open mind. They have been very supportive and patient. Their sound advices helped me rise up from where I fall. They helped me bring myself back into my senses where I was emotionally blinded. They also helped me bring back my faith in You.

I would still thank you for bringing Arven into my life. As they say, he is just a part of my life, he isn't my life. With him, I learned how to love and be loved; got hurt and stand up again; humbled and understood. I may not be the perfect girl for him, but at least I was closed to being the right one. I would still forever cherish those times being with him coz I knew he really did loved me, but sadly, not enough to face and fight adversities.

I am grateful truly for this blessing in disguise. Starting anew on my own isn't easy without your help and guidance. But now is the time to present to you my renewed self...even better and whole once again. May you continue to guide me as I continue the journey of my life. Amen.

Now you'll see me SMILING again! c",)


Portable Fan

Back home, I am fond of sleeping anywhere in the house where I find it cozy. Don't get me wrong. I have my own bedroom but I still wanted to sleep somewhere in the house where I find it conducive for sleeping and comforting on my part. Good thing we have portable fans where I could use to give me good ventilation.

Monday, December 15, 2008

Last Word Syndrome

The day I first heard this statement from him, "Ayaw ko na talaga", it didn't get off my head. Until now, I repeatedly hear this words in my mind and it hurts like hell. I still cry over and over again whenever I remember these words. My heart's in pain and there's nothing that can ease this especially now that he's gone. I have to bear the pain coz there's nothing that I can do now. It's like your heart's being squeezed to death by an unknown thing until you'll get an infarction and it feels like I'm going to have an abnormal ECG soon.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Dreaming A Dead Person

"To dream of seeing the dead, living and happy, signifies you are letting wrong influences into your life, which will bring material loss if not corrected by the assumption of your own will force." - Dream Revealer

"Red - This is an indication of great passion and sensitivity in your emotional relationships." - Petrix

Two nights ago, I dreamt of seeing a dead person smiling at me with a red color in the background. That dead female's not my acquaintance but the moment I saw it in my dream, I sensed that it's a sign that it's already over. Although basing on the dream dictionary I researched online, it didn't tackle about ending. I'm confused.. Hehe. Although there were two of them but I didn't saw the face of the other one but I knew it's a dead person as well who is lying on the dead female's lap. I guess the dead body is the sign for ending. *Sob.

Hayz, I'm sad that it's finally over and I missed him so badly. I'm trying to be happy but deep down inside I'm in so much pain. T_T



*Photo by ~Cast-Down-Doll of Deviantart.

Researching for Diet Pills

When it comes to weight loss, we usually want the quickest and effective ways to lose our unwanted fats. As posted on my last entry, some goes to the gym and sweat all their toxins out while some go on a diet. There are some who are lazy enough or doesn't have the time to do the natural way and opted to taking diet pills instead.

I'm curious though so I am asking you now, what's your way in losing weight?

Reducing Body Fats

Most women in our society are very much concern with their body. Some enrolled in the gym for toning and for healthy living. There are certain ladies as well who takes fat burners to speed their losing weight. A lot of these products were being advertised in the television with popular celebrities endorsing them.

So what's the
best fat burner we have these days? Mind you, I'm very much cautious with taking certain supplements and I consult my physician first before taking any. I suggest you do the same thing if you plan to take some. It's also helpful to do some research.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

BEAR-iuca


The Spirit of BEAR-iuca

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Once upon a time, in a land far, far away, there lived a powerful Genie Princess named Mariuca who was known throughout the land as the friendliest, most popular blogger in the blogosphere kingdom. Adored and admired by international visitors and commentators from around the world, the Genie Princess travels the blogosphere on her magical flying carpet, always looking for ways to share her good fortune with others.

Over the past two years of blogging, Mariuca has met so many new people, from all walks of life and all over the world, each one bringing a little of their culture and lifestyle when they visit and comment on Mariuca’s two sites. So on her 2nd Blog Anniversary, Mariuca wanted to celebrate with all of her international blogosphere buddies by hosting a bear-naming contests at Wishing On A Falling Star and Mariuca’s Perfume Gallery and to pass her two lucky, cuddly teddy bears along to the winners who came up with the best names.

On the opposite side of the world, from the moment Roxy (the prolific Roxiticus Desperate Housewives blogger) and her sweet daughters London and Maddie saw the teddy in his personalized t-shirt and blue muffler at Wishing On A Falling Star, they knew that he needed to come to live with their family in Mendham, NJ. The three New Jersey girls named him immediately and burst into a wonderful song for BEAR-iuca:


BEAR-iuca, BEAR-iuca, amazing teddy cheer.
BEAR-iuca, BEAR-iuca, we’d love you to come live here!

Mariuca received 16 possible names for the Mariuca Teddy Bear, making it hard for the Genie Princess to choose just one…then Alakazam! A bolt of lightning delivered the perfect way to share BEAR-iuca’s good fortune to bloggers around the globe. While the soft, stuffed, cuddly BEAR-iuca is on his way to live with Roxy, London, Maddie and Rex in the Roxiticus Valley, the Spirit of BEAR-iuca is racing through the blogosphere to bring happiness, holiday cheer, and beary best wishes to everyone who welcomes him into their online home and passes along the BEAR-iuca good luck charm to ten friends.

Please play along with us by following a few important rules:

1. Add your site(s) to the list once you have received the Spirit of BEAR-iuca badge of teddy bear cheer.
2. Pass along the Spirit of BEAR-iuca and his cheery badge to as many people as you like.
3. Leave a comment HERE once you’ve passed on the Spirit of BEAR-iuca.
4. Once Roxy and the Genie Princess have visited your site to make sure your links are complete and proper, you will then be added to the Master List.
4. To ensure everyone receives equal link benefit, please UPDATE your list regularly!

BEAR-iuca LOVES

1. Mariuca 2. Roxiticus Desperate Housewives 3. Mariuca’s Perfume Gallery 4. Roxy’s Best Of... 5. Bay Head Blog 6. Roxiticus Best Blogs 7. Emila's Illustrated Blog 8. Metz - Empty Streets 9. The Spirit of Blogging 10. Speedcat Hollydale Page 11. Snapshot 12. purplefrogcat 13. Turn-u-Off 14. Simple Life 15. A Little Girl Talk 16. Life in the Lapadula House 17. Spicybugz World 18. The Mom With Brownies 19. Our High School Homeschool 20. Our Five Dangerous Boys 21. The Big Dog 22. LadyJava's Lounge 23. Moments of My Life 24. Life is too short to be ordinary 25. A Great Pleasure 26. Time Goes By 27. Life According To Me 28. Laketrees 29. This is a miracle 30. Porcelain Doll 31. Moms...CheckNyo 32. Wonderful Things In Life 33. Sweet Nothings 34. Hot Shit Form Here 35. Not Just a Mom Site 36. The Life of a Mom 37. Wiehanne Lounge 38. The Painted Veil 39. My Crossroads 40. Little Mermaid 41. LOVE's Haven 42. Also Mommy 43. The Journey 44. Comedy Plus 45. Making sense...(somehow) 46. The Modern Mom 47. Stay At Home Mom 48. Picture Clusters 49. Maiylah's Snippets 50. Sweety tots 51. My Discoveries 52. A Life to Remember 53. Rekha 54. Crissy's Haven 55. Crissy's Library 56. Crissy's Zone 57. Shopping Blog 58. Crafts and cooking 59. Asian Mutt International 60. YOU Next!



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Trading

I assume most of us own a CDs or DVDs here. Probably a collection of movies and music or whatsoever. But have you thought about what to do with your other CDs and DVDs? Just like if it's of no value to you anymore, do you just throw those away?

At AbundaTrade, you can get to trade those used cds and DVDs to a a new purchase such an ipod or a digital camera. Cool huh? You can also trade your used books with them. Now there's value with those used items.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

one of my comfort zones


Most of us have our bedrooms as our comfort zone. It's our sanctuary and they say you may know the character of the person by looking at his/her room.

I do have my own room but recently, I find myself sleeping in the dining room. During our recent break up, I got used to sleeping in that corner. I don't know why, but I think I'm more comfortable there. It's situated in the left upper corner of our dining room and next to it is already our dining table.

Where's your comfort zone?

Review King

Before purchasing any product, isn't it appropriate to read some reviews with regards to it. At least you'll know what to expect and what to be cautious about. In that way, you'll make right choices on what to buy.

On ReviewKing, you will find Product Reviews and ratings from lifestyle, fitness, movies, food and etc. It's helpful you know. They will point you to the right direction on finding the products and services you are looking for in a quick and efficient manner.

Monday, December 8, 2008

waiting for his sms

Since this morning I was texting Arven some messages. Sadly, I got no reply. Tried calling him in his mobile but it's out of reach. I remembered him telling me he have problems with his mobile charger, it's not working according to him or perhaps his cellphone's not working well.

Just this afternoon, I was strolling in the mall alone and still trying to call him in his mobile phone. After many attempts I successfully heard his voice and ask him what's wrong and how he is. Still, he told me it's his phone, he don't know what's wrong with it. Then the line was cut. Tried calling again and I can't reach him again. Hayz. I was still trying to call him while I was heading home and when I was able to get through the line, I told him I'm going to their house as I was getting worried about not hearing from him the whole day.

There he was, with his two siblings in the living room singing with their videoke system. I guess, he was telling the truth. His phone's off and was plugged for charging but it's not charging. LOL.


I guess I now realized how difficult and worrysome it was texting someone you care and not hearing from him back. I miss the old him. He used to text me everyday, almost every minute but I did not appreciated his effort...now I do. Back then, I was contented to text him back with only few messages. But when I don't hear from him the whole day, I misses him and that's what I am feeling now. Hayz, I just wish everything will get back to the way it was before. c",)

*Photo credited to ~nebulaskin of deviantart.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

web hosting geeks

I was formerly looking for a web host for my blog. As far as I can remember, back then it was quite expensive...I think and I didn't know what to look for in purchasing a host and what host is worth buying for. So I ended up hosting my blog with blogger instead to be in the safer side.

I found this site online, webhostinggeeks.com, where you can find great independent reviews about certain web site hosting providers at an affordable price. For like $10 a month, you can avail of one free domain name registration and a 30 day money back guarantee. Aside from the hosting review, you can find the web host's features as well as their bonus features and compare them with their prices.

I suggest you look up to this site if you are looking for a new web host. I think it's reliable since it's been operating since 2004 and has been receiving awards since then for their services. Perhaps you'll be lucky to find the suitable web host for you and your site. And I'm wishing you would.

You can learn more about web hosting from this site if you don't know anything about it yet. It will help you gain knowledge about web hosting which will help you for a smarter decision making when purchasing one.

for these past few days, after the so-called break up, Arven and I still constantly communicate via text messaging. i was close to giving up my hope of us getting back. just yesterday, we talked personally and i guess we're getting back together. we're trying to fix things and honestly, it's hard. things have changed, it isn't the same as before. even he changed. he's not the usual expressive guy i knew. he honestly told me about it, that he finds it hard to trust me again and that the pain is still there. though he admitted that he still loves me, though it's lesser than before and he's scared to love me more. huhu.

i'm quite happy being with him again, though kinda sad because things are different now. i miss the old him. T_T.

Friday, December 5, 2008

The day that was...

I was able to buy a dvd copy of Gossip Girl Season 2. At last, I'm done watching with the season 1. Can't get enough of Queen B and the rest of the gangs.

I've also bought a dvd copy of Death Note 3 live action. I'm a big fan of death note and seeing a death note 3 intrigued me knowing that the characters already died from it. Bought it and just recently finished watching it. It's not the same concept with the previous death note I've seen. This is more of L's story.

Right now, I wanted to go to the bookstore and buy the books I've been eyeing for the past few days.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

PinayMommy Blog Contest



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it hurts a lot...

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Dropping EC with ease

Are you using entrecard toolbar now? Well I am using it for several days now and I can say it helped me dropped my entrecards with ease. And because I have three blogs, it's not hard to switch from one blog to the other with this toolbar.

I'm using this while watching Gossip Girl. Still in season 1. So far I'm liking it and getting addicted to it. I'll be buying the season 2 since I'm about to finish it today.

Monday, December 1, 2008

Loving too much...

I was crying my heart out since last night over this break up, geez! Can't accept the fact he's dumping me. Who wouldn't do that after all that I've done, right? I was hoping he'll changed his mind but unfortunately he didn't. He always emphasized how hurt he was and how stupid he thought he was. It hurts to hear him say he wanted to forget me and start a new life without me.

After all the begging and pleading I made, the urge of hurting myself set in. But my mom came in to the rescue. We talked about it. I told her my mistakes and that I don't want to let go of him. I repeatedly told her it was my mistake and I should make up for it. She advised me that we should talked about it and compromise. And I quote what she said...

"...Talk about it. Yes, it was your mistake but despite that, if he's still willing to accept you, hold on and go on with the relationship. But if he's not willing to accept the past, let go and move on. There's no point of holding on when he cannot accept it and doesn't love you anymore. You'll argue about it over and over again even until you'll get married. It's painful to accept but that's part of loving. You will get hurt in the process but if you really love someone, you'll endure the pain, forgive and forget, and love again. If he comes back, good for you; if not, then just accept it. Be brave! And didn't I tell you not to love too much?"

"...if he can't accept the past, he doesn't truly love you. Because if he does, he won't let go of you no matter what you've done and how painful it was."


Honestly, it was comforting to hear that from her. I didn't expect it thinking that she was insensitive, unapproachable, a nagger and biased. I've heard that advise from everyone, but it's just comforting and convincing hearing it from her. I never talked about my problems with her. After our conversation, I felt relieved though there's still pain but I'm trying to accept that we're over. Wait, is cool off the same as break up? Either way, I hope it's not final but I'm guessing it is.

I think I followed her advise not to love too much. But what happened? He even accused me for taking him for granted. Yeah right, I did feel too comfortable of his love. And because of that, I became the unfaithful gf and now we're over. Still I'm hoping he'll come back, but I think he won't since he wants to find his true love. As for him, I will always be the unfaithful gf but he will always be my one true love. Though I screwed up, huhu.

Haayz, gugma! Better luck next time, Crissy! Gosh, I'm still trying to hide the pain. SOB. T_T



*Photo by ~Xx-Eclise-Clarke-xX of deviantart.

Is this considered a basement?

Basically our house has been used as a storage of some stocks from our shop. And they're obviously occupying the space in our front yard. You'll see wheel rims, coilovers and other stuffs that I do not even know what they are called. Although those rims helped conceal the unfinished open window we have in the dining room, so I think it's double purpose anyway.

Lawyers for specific health disease

As a health care provider, I am aware of the fact that we need lawyers to defend us in terms of suits accused on us, and of course patients do also need one to safeguard and defend their rights. Though what I didn't know is that there are these certain lawyers for cerebral palsy patients. Is this specialization? I'll try to figure that out.

the business sector...

There was a time I got worried about my future with "A", him being a future seafarer and me being a nurse with the dream to work abroad. I thought if we'll both work abroad there will be little chance for us to communicate or perhaps see each other. So I thought that perhaps there should be one of us who'll stay here. And I think it must be me. Considering this case, I planned to set up a business. Since it might be hard to start one, I consider getting a franchise. After all there are a lot of franchise opportunity out there to chose from. I guess, that plan will just remain a plan.

Sunday, November 30, 2008





I thought sometime alone
was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end
of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone (alone)
and I tried to find
out if this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoo-oo-oo-oo yeah

And then I met someone
and thought she could replace you
we got a long just fine
we wasted time because she was not you
we had a lot of fun
though we knew we were faking
love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies, all lies
so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
who holds my heart

I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,
I can only prove the things I say with time,
please be mine,

I'd rather have bad times with (please be mine) you,
than good times with someone else (I know)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (anytime),
than safe and warm by myself (so sure baby)
I'd rather have hard times to gether,
than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart (my heart)

I'd rather have bad times with you (surely),
than good times with someone else (surely)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (oh yeah),
than safe and warm by myself (all by myself)
I'd rather have hard times together,
than to have it easy apart (you know it)
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoooo.....who holds my heart

Friday, November 28, 2008

My birthday's over...

I would like to thank the people who greeted me on my birthday. Yes it was my birthday yesterday and I am now 25! Should I be happy or not? Hehe. It was surprising to check on my friendster account with greeting comments waiting for approval from my friends and for those friends and acquaintances whom I did not expect to greet me. Thanks a lot guys!

Anyways, I woke up this morning gloomy, felt like an ordinary day. Though my parents greeted me and asked me what I want for my birthday. Dinner? Or a house celebration perhaps? But these I declined. Hmm...I wasn't in the mood for a celebration and so I told them I just wanted to unwind. And so I did!

My boyfriend and I went to SM and ate our dinner at Antonio's, then a parfait at Igloo. Before heading home, we dropped by at Cats & Dogs for a videoke. Hayz. I don't want to sing but he kept on insisting, good thing it's just the two of us so it's not that embarrassing. But still, I sang out of tune and almost lost my voice from singing. Haha. Obviously, I just wanted to spend this day with him.

A NIKE shirt from Arven

Still from Arven. Isn't he sweet? *ROFL.

Even though it was my birthday, I was still kinda sad knowing that I didn't received the sign I asked of Him. *Sob. On the other hand, I just wished that my birthday wishes will be granted, that will really make me happy.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

The Twilight Date


Edward: "And so the lion fell in love with the lamb…"
Bella: "What a stupid lamb."
Edward: "What a sick, masochistic lion."

Earlier this morning, I was planning to watch Twilight at NCCC mall so I have to call them up to confirm the movie schedule. Now the problem would be, who would accompany me? My brother did asked me the night before to watch it with him but he was nowhere in sight this morning. He has classes to attend to. And since my boyfriend and I had a misunderstanding last night so I didn't dare to text him. Good thing he did and I asked him to watch Twilight with me! Haha. It was basically a love story between a mortal and an immortal. Didn't even find the movie extraordinary. Better listen to their lines to get the mushy details. Hehe. So now, I'm quoting the lines from the book that I got online. Feel free to share your favorite Twilight quotes.


Bella: "I love you. I will always love you, no matter what happens now."

*Photos credited to hvyilnr of Flickr.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Discovering Paying Post

While blog hopping, I came to discover this new blog advertising network called, Paying Post, and decided to sign up. Basically, it works like PPP. So it wouldn't be as complicated as you may think. They also have an affiliate program where you could be compensated for your referrals. Why not join now and discover it yourself too?

Blog Advertising

Acnes Alert

After having my clinical training, many people have commented that I have pimples on my face. Huhu. So I said it might be caused by stress. As observed, every time that I am about to finish my clinical training, zits pop out too. Hmm. So I'm trying my best to take care of my skin though sometimes I get too lazy to pamper my self. Hayz. And I think I need an effective acne scar treatment to help me get rid of these before my friend's wedding day.

Buying a Flat Screen

My father and I talked about purchasing a flat screen for our living room. Our current TV has been nearly ten years or more with us but still in good condition. Now we're having doubts if it's a good thing. Haha. So I suggested that we placed the current TV in the kitchen and buy a new one for our living room. But the problem would now be the tv stands. We need one for the kitchen and one for the living room. Haayz.

Monday, November 24, 2008

GS Lying In and OB-Gyne Clinic



Our whole family together with our other relatives all flocked at Suaybaguio's Residence in Tagum City to celebrate the Feast of Christ the King and at the same time, witnessed the opening of my Auntie's Maternity Clinic.

Have stayed in my Auntie's house for 3 months and witnessed the construction of the said clinic. And I was surprised to see the beautiful outcome of it. Congratulations!!!




Spectacles for me

In a few more days, I will be celebrating my 25th birthday! Yay! I'm getting older. Haha. I'm not really fond of celebrating my birthday for several years now nor receiving gifts. But it is appreciated if you are giving me the $ 8 Complete Rx Eyeglasses. Especially if it's from one of The popular online eyeglasses shop. The photo below is my favorite eyeglasses, it's one of the selections of the Holiday Glass Frames From Zenni Optical.


Saturday, November 22, 2008

New themes for GMAIL


You now have the freedom to change the theme of your GMAIL account with their new themes available to choose from. Just recently changed mine to "shiny". How about yours?

Friday, November 21, 2008

Tropical

Living in a tropical country, we don't expect a white Christmas so we don't get to try on snowmobiles. If ever there is a snow here, I think my father will be selling snowmobile parts in our shop too. Hehe. Anyway, I have seen the Tagum City's giant Christmas tree the other night. I think that was the night they formally lighted that tree and with that it caused heavy traffic within the metro. As for now, I have to get a rest since I'm feeling dizzy. Will try to blog this afternoon.

Flash drive missing

Went to my boyfriend's house yesterday and I brought my USB compact flash drive with me. I was thinking of copying some music files from his desktop. I remember putting it inside my little purse so I won't forget it. When I reached home, my brother was asking for the flash drive so he can save some of his documents in it. Told him it's inside my purse. But there's no flash drive insight. Huhu. Where could it be?

Laundry

Once a week, we do our laundry care of my cousin, Kring. So for the remaining days of the week, you can expect to see a full laundry hamper. Hehe. Once in awhile, I also help in doing the laundry. But don't expect I'll help if there is no washing machine available. Haha. Can't tolerate to do the laundry by hand since my fingers are kinda sensitive. Nyahaha.

Feeling Dizzy...

Just this morning upon waking up, my mom informed me that there is an ongoing free immunization against Filariasis in our village. And because it's an oral medication, full appetite is recommended. I then ate my breakfast and assisted JC to eat his meal too. We then headed to the court and avail of our immunization.

Right now, I feel dizzy. Hmm...it must be one of the side effects of the medications.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Gift Giving

Christmas time is fast approaching. Are you done with your Christmas shopping? Better do so and avoid the Christmas rush.

Just last week, I think, "The Sweet Life" in Qtv featured the popular things to buy for Christmas presents. Too bad I wasn't able to watch it. And aside from that they had also featured those usual Christmas gifts that is a no-no to give this time. I wonder what are those.

I'm not fond of giving Christmas presents. Haha. Though I think, I'll make an exception this time. I was thinking of buying one for Arven but I don't want to disclose it here. It's a surprise! Wee! I shouldn't have given you a hint since he's not aware that I'll be giving him a present. Haha. I just hope he won't read this.

On another note, if you are still looking for presents to give this Christmas, I suggest you buy one of the Holiday frames of Zenni Optical. They have a wonderful selection of holiday frames available. And among of their frames, this item caught my attention...


...it's stylish, simple and lightweight. You'll find a lot of selections on their site and I want you to check it out.

I'm Broke


Haayz, I have a postpaid line due and right now, I'm starting to worry on where to get some moolah for it. Unfortunately, I only have very limited assignments this time. Where could I possibly earn money to pay for my bill.? Huhu. On the brighter side, I decided to buy a prepaid sim for my phone and rest my postpaid line for a number months until I pay all my outstanding balance. Hehe.


*Photo by ~makhor of deviantart.

Mobile Music

A lot of gadgets are being introduced nowadays in the market. Among these are MP3 players. I got one mp3 player on hand, but I am thinking of purchasing another one since my mp3 only has limited memory and I cannot download a number of music in it unless I delete some of the files. It's a tedious work, you know! Hehe. Unfortunately, I don't have one particular model in mind right now. *Bleh.

Cat Supplies

I've been thinking lately that I should get a cat for myself. Cat's don't grow big like dogs so they don't tend to occupy much space in the house. Plus, I like the fact that they're furry and cuddly. They like to scratch and play and they're are cute! Hehe. With this in mind, I am also trying to plan on what cat supplies to purchase soon 'coz they deserve to be pampered.

Flower Friendship Tag



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Here are the rules for this tag:

1.) Copy the badge and put it on your blog,

2.) Link back who pass you this tag,

3.) Spread this tag to at least 7 or more bloggers who you think you are friend with.

“And lovely are the blossomsThat are tended with great care,By those who work unselfishlyTo make the place more fair.And, like the garden blossoms,Friendship’s flower grows more sweetWhen watched and tended carefullyBy those we know and meet.And, if the seed of friendshipIs planted deep and trueAnd watched with understanding,Friendship’s flower will bloom for you."

Now, I am passing this friendship flower award to papams, catea, benchiegrace, laura, pounding heartbeat, the ultimate food, vianne.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Christmas is Near


I can feel the cold Christmas breeze. Truly, Christmas is fast approaching. By this time, I can hear Christmas carols being aired over various radio stations as well as in the malls. I can definitely feel the Christmas spirit especially seeing those colorful Christmas decors and lightings around the city. Now is also the time for us to decorate our home. Lol.

*Photo by ~DreAmimngingDigITal of deviantart.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Understanding a Sagi Woman

This is a repost from Gleez.

A tall slim and graceful woman who walked proudly like she is walking in a beauty pageant competition. If she slips or nearly falls, she will nicely covered it up and continue with her graceful and impressive walking step. She knows how to use make up to enhance her beauty. She looks at the world positively, so her face always seem so happy. She will not get up set easily.


Self confident woman who belief in her own style. She will not follow fashion, but standing in between simplicity and too modern. She is a very open person, sometimes can be too blunt. She is an honest person and never try to cause troubles for any one. She likes to say something that you do not want to hear and yet she can say something so pleasing at the same time. Example she may say "I wish you could make more money, so you could afford better cloth, but anyway it is better this way. If you make more money you could be thinking of money too much and become greedy". She can say such thing and make you wonder if you should get up set or love her more.


She is also a free spirit and does not like to stay home. She likes to be protected, but not to give her orders. She has no respect to a weak man. If she try to over powered you, then you have to calm her down and try to control her to be in a limit by doing the same thing too. She will listen if she respect you. She likes to be herself and like her guy to be himself. She is a no nonsense woman, so you will not hear she says " Guess what I will do next", or "Guess what I am thinking" because she always say what she is thinking out loud like a guy. If you do not understand her in this matter, you could easily break up with her. She sees problems in her love life as another funny story.

She is clumsy and it is in her nature. You may think it is cute, but for some neat guys this could be so unbearable. She is very friendly, so she can easily turn her enemy to be her friends. She has good taste in fine cloths, good food, first class and first services. Even a poor woman in this Zodiac will struggle to afford such good taste. She could spent lots of money as if she can not understand how difficult it is to make money. If you think of let her borrow money, think again.


She is a paranoid. If she thinks you like her, she may already think about getting marry and lost her freedom and so on and on. A jolly woman who loves sports. She is an ordinary woman who could dress like a tomboy. She has more guy friends and sometimes could act like one of a guy. She does not care about rumors, so she can get home very late and couldn't careless what her neighbor will gossip about her. She thinks either good or bad, you will know it yourself , so you should not bother what people think.


Her wit and innocent look are her charms. She is often hurts from love, but never afraid to look for a new one as if she is singing "Do that to me one more time". She likes going straight and being straight forward. She will not go around to get what she wants, or beat around the bush just to say something. If you meet her and tell her straight what you think, she will admire you.

*Photo by *skeelar of deviantart.