for these past few days, after the so-called break up, Arven and I still constantly communicate via text messaging. i was close to giving up my hope of us getting back. just yesterday, we talked personally and i guess we're getting back together. we're trying to fix things and honestly, it's hard. things have changed, it isn't the same as before. even he changed. he's not the usual expressive guy i knew. he honestly told me about it, that he finds it hard to trust me again and that the pain is still there. though he admitted that he still loves me, though it's lesser than before and he's scared to love me more. huhu.

i'm quite happy being with him again, though kinda sad because things are different now. i miss the old him. T_T.