It would be another lonesome day for me tomorrow, as I remember it as supposedly special. Days prior, I am starting to feel sad and longing. I know I shouldn't feel this way. I know he's happy of where he is now and with whom he is connected to. But I can't just fight the feeling of missing him. Especially now that I have asked him to stop our communication. Things are just too complicated and chaotic. I don't feel like I belong to this situation. I felt like withdrawing and that's what I'm doing. I just hope things will be better soon.