Monday, January 19, 2009

Ambivalence...

A few weeks back, arven and I got back together. He agreed to give me another chance and that he'll try his part to make it work. Sad thing is, he's not cooperating and still ignores me. His reason was, he doesn't have the urge and the motivation to do so and was really discouraged and hated me for what I have done to him. It hurts since I still really love him and no matter how I encouraged and asked him to stay, he still insisted that he wants to be alone.

There's a part of me that wants to let him go and forget about him, but another part of me wants to hold on, and the latter is the dominant one. How I wished it's easy to let go. And I am wishing I could let him go.

Huhu...I wanted to kill myself because of him leaving me again. Darn!

3 comments:

Hapi said...

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complicated girl said...

hey crissy!!
I Duno wat happened but I won't judge as well...
Too much drama ain't it...hahahha..
Hope you get by in one peice. tc u!

Crissy said...

yeah too much drama...

but we're still together. i don't know if he's still serious about breaking up. or i think he's still just in pain and bitter.